Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Craziness

The number of people that need my attention right now is a crazy number. I don't know how all this happened. Things seem totally out of control. Yeah, yeah, I am moving at great speed and all that. But I don't think I have a good hold on most of the things that I am supposed to be doing at this very moment. The music group needs a lot of attention and last night I had to spend time fixing parts of a song till about 1 AM. I didn't get much sleep. Lot of other personal issues to take care of. Plus there is work, where again there are too many people who need inputs from me. I do feel important now, but I am skeptical of sustaining this situation. I have lost all the free time I had where I used to read books and contemplate. I really hope I get out of this kind of a schedule sometime soon so that I can take a breath.

All kinds of people issues are looming. I don't have the luxury of making one person happy in a whole big group of around 15 people. I don't understand why people don't understand sometimes. They need attention, a lot of attention. They want to be in focus and really forget about what's important for the show as such. Now, for any big post or a leadership position, this will continue to be a challenge. That's why I don't want to frown now and give up on the situation. May be this is a real test for me, considering what I have been wanting to do in the recent times. This is a test to see how I fare on such leadership roles. I do have to come out clean from this one and put up a great show. Most people are happy, that's the good part. There are a few strong glitches that I have to fix amicably before the show. Chances are that I'll always run into people who push me to limits. I guess I just have to live with it and come up.

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